Results
The biggest Christmas present I have ever received so far (and not to mention, will probably be the only one) comes in the form of my semester results. Hard work really pays off. The many mornings, afternoons and evenings and sometimes late nights staying back in school mugging my ass off was worth the effort, time and money.
I suddenly feel like one of the happiest persons on Earth. Listen to my story and you'll understand why. This morning I knew the results were going to be released by 1 PM but I kept telling myself I should only check it one week later. This self denial went on till around 11 PM when my school mates dropped me a message and asked about results, to which I replied I haven't checked yet.
And then he went on blabbering about the modules we took and what grades he got (he wasn't showing off) so that got me really ginormously curious about my own results! Procrastination coupled with a truckload of anxiety set in, so again, I deferred checking them.
I went out for supper and I asked the best friend to check the results using SMS. I keyed in everything but the last digit of my PIN number. I was trembling by then. I don't know what made me so scared, I was nervous and I was going to break down. I thought about the worst-case scenario. I was so paranoid that I typed the SMS in so many times but eventually ended up deleting it away. While walking back home, I keyed in everything, told the best friend not to tell me anything about it, or show me any form of expression after seeing it. I arrived home at 2 AM, still not knowing my results.
I SMS-ed the best friend asking for some hints, but being such a trustworthy guy, he kept to his promise and answered nothing relevant. After sitting in front of my laptop, I thought about a lot of things. I managed to convince myself that checking the results now and a week later will not make any difference to the results. It's just a matter of time...
So I mustered up enough courage, searched for the website, keyed in my userid and password, stood up, held my breath, placed my finger on the mouse, punched the button and walked away. I slowly walked back to find nothing happening. Invalid userid. I included the front portion of it as well! On the 2nd attempt, I deleted the front portion, keyed in the password again, stood up, held my breath, placed my finger on the mouse, slowly pressed it, and walked off.
From afar I could see the results page. My heart skipped a beat. Two beats. Three beats. I walked towards the laptop slowly. I held my breath. My eyes zoomed into the right hand side of the results table - the grades. It was then that I realized the first letter on the results slip was the first alphabet in the English language. My God!!!
I don't know why I was so anxious about my results this sem. I think it's because I did well last sem after studying my ass off so I thought I would need to keep that up this sem. To those who have helped me in any way in this sem, thank you even though all of you will probably not read this anyway. To those who had been under my constant whining and paranoia today, sorry and thank you.
I'm feeling the motivation already.
I suddenly feel like one of the happiest persons on Earth. Listen to my story and you'll understand why. This morning I knew the results were going to be released by 1 PM but I kept telling myself I should only check it one week later. This self denial went on till around 11 PM when my school mates dropped me a message and asked about results, to which I replied I haven't checked yet.
And then he went on blabbering about the modules we took and what grades he got (he wasn't showing off) so that got me really ginormously curious about my own results! Procrastination coupled with a truckload of anxiety set in, so again, I deferred checking them.
I went out for supper and I asked the best friend to check the results using SMS. I keyed in everything but the last digit of my PIN number. I was trembling by then. I don't know what made me so scared, I was nervous and I was going to break down. I thought about the worst-case scenario. I was so paranoid that I typed the SMS in so many times but eventually ended up deleting it away. While walking back home, I keyed in everything, told the best friend not to tell me anything about it, or show me any form of expression after seeing it. I arrived home at 2 AM, still not knowing my results.
I SMS-ed the best friend asking for some hints, but being such a trustworthy guy, he kept to his promise and answered nothing relevant. After sitting in front of my laptop, I thought about a lot of things. I managed to convince myself that checking the results now and a week later will not make any difference to the results. It's just a matter of time...
So I mustered up enough courage, searched for the website, keyed in my userid and password, stood up, held my breath, placed my finger on the mouse, punched the button and walked away. I slowly walked back to find nothing happening. Invalid userid. I included the front portion of it as well! On the 2nd attempt, I deleted the front portion, keyed in the password again, stood up, held my breath, placed my finger on the mouse, slowly pressed it, and walked off.
From afar I could see the results page. My heart skipped a beat. Two beats. Three beats. I walked towards the laptop slowly. I held my breath. My eyes zoomed into the right hand side of the results table - the grades. It was then that I realized the first letter on the results slip was the first alphabet in the English language. My God!!!
I don't know why I was so anxious about my results this sem. I think it's because I did well last sem after studying my ass off so I thought I would need to keep that up this sem. To those who have helped me in any way in this sem, thank you even though all of you will probably not read this anyway. To those who had been under my constant whining and paranoia today, sorry and thank you.
I'm feeling the motivation already.
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